Today..

I'm Under Deep depression lately. Nobody is probably reading this. But I don't care. It has to come out. I'm starting to hate all of my friends. I have around 20 friends. and now I only truly like 7 of them. Is it possible to hate 13 people?

When people copy me, I just want to break down and cry because it happens so often now. I'm so used to being the outcast, that when I moved to a new school I didn't expect this to happen. I just wish people would understand me. 

If anyone does, thank you. I feel like I'm going through this alone. All my friends continue to try and help but some make it worst. The friend (keeping anonymous) that i have been talking to everyday, however, has helped me a lot. And i thank her dearly for that. 

My mom always tries to cool me down when i get angry, but i'm at the point now where i can't control my anger.

Btw, if you are one of my friends and reading this and you have a boyfriend, if your gonna text him the whole time we are together, please put your phone on vibrate. If i hear this stupid ringer one more time, i will hurt something. 

I'm Not goth.

I'm Not emo.

I don't like to be labeled. 

I'm just a kid that has indescribable emotions. 

Thanks I guess, if you took your time to read this.

I'm sorry i wasted your time if you did.

xoxo

-Maria