Lately.

I have figured it out. The void in my life is lack of romantic love. I have plenty of love from my family, but it's not enough. I want somebody who loves me, differently than my family. 

I know i'm young, but imagine being older trapped in a body of somebody 3 years younger than you. It's awful. I've never kissed a boy, or had a boyfriend. Believe me, i've been asked out plenty, but not by people who I honestly think will love me. 

I don't mean love as in "dating for a week" love. I want somebody who will stay with me at least a year. 

I get depressed every time i read a love story. But they are my addiction and i can't stop reading them. i have this weird theory that if i can gain knowledge from all these stories i can create my own long lasting relationship. 

yeah. So, another possible form of depression.

-Maria.